The following is a looong post, but please bear with it as I unload my heart.
The above photo is from the perspective of the window of my upstairs bathroom. This was my favorite tree on our property. Before it split (sometime before Christmas), it was lush and full with no sign of disease. It is also how God chose to speak to me.
I’ll try to explain. One night several weeks ago I was awakened by a loud crash. For some reason I immediately went to the bathroom adjoining my bedroom to look out that window, instead of the window which over looks my backyard and our barn. Though it was dark, I could still see that this tree had randomly split in half. I say randomly because there was no high wind that night and though it was cold, it wasn’t frigid and no notable ice accumulation. Plus, as I said, the tree had looked so healthy.
Upon beholding the tree, I immediately received a message in my spirit to “pay attention”. I went back to bed but on my way I noticed the time was 3:33 a.m. Again, a stirring in my spirit to “pay attention”.
The next day I couldn’t shake the feeling there was a message for me in that tree and, more specifically, in the 3:33. So I do what we do nowadays and Googled 333. I was directed to some new age mumbo jumbo about number significance, which I discarded. If this was the enemy trying to trick me, I was having none of it. I pray very earnestly every day for wisdom, discernment, and to not be deceived. Eventually my search led me to a verse within God’s Word.
The very wording of the verse made me feel kind of dizzy, like when your mind is struggling to focus in and fully comprehend what is being said. I knew this was what I was supposed to pay attention to, but at the same time, I didn’t know. You see, I’m a “what if” kinda person. I look at a situation and can see half a dozen ways it can be different than how it appears at face value. In short, I analyze everything to death. This can be helpful, but it’s also exhausting and often leaves me feeling indecisive and unsure. So. When (or IF) I finally reach a conclusion about something, you can be sure that conclusion involved a long process and lots of praying.
I prayed. And prayed. Then I decided to just wait. If that tree held a message from God, He’d reveal it soon enough. Then it came. Last week I read a book by a man named Charles Simpson. It was a memoir of sorts about how his walk with the Lord was influenced by the late David Wilkerson. But more than that, he shared specifics about his personal journey and ways God spoke to him. He recalled the time he dreamed about the woman he was going to marry. When he awoke, it was 3:33 a.m. That got my attention. I pick up on patterns rather easily. Then later, that verse came up in something else I was either reading or watching, I can’t remember which. I finally told God, “If you mean that verse to be significant to me personally, I need one more confirmation”. A few days later I was listening to Charles Stanley on YouTube about prayer. Guess which verse he quoted. Yep. I sighed, decided to give up the struggle, and step out in faith that God wants me to pay attention to that particular verse. I’ll get to which verse in a bit.
First I want to explore the possible significance of the split tree. Though I haven’t gone through my usual analyzations, I may now know the message found within the tree. It seems rather obvious and you probably picked up on it right away.
The split tree itself reveals two lessons: 1. I must abide in Him and 2. I must cut off and discard that in my life/flesh which is unfruitful and/or ungodly. Note: while typing this I realized the verse above happens to be “Youversion” Bible app’s verse-of-the-day. So there we go. Ha ha, isn’t God AWESOME?!
But that isn’t the verse. The time (3:33), significantly enough, is the third lesson. I must learn the first two lessons before I can receive the full blessing of the third, which is the verse.
I have had dreams that felt significant for most of my life. I’m also able to sense when something else is nearby, even though that something is invisible. The world would call them ghosts, but ghosts by the world’s definition is unbiblical. Twice in the past 5 years something unseen has pushed me in an attempt to harm me: Once while I was going down the stairs and again outside where, if I had fallen, I would have hit my head on a metal feeding trough. Both times something else stopped my fall, pushing me the other direction so I stood back up. I felt it as surely as I feel this chair on which I now sit. Don’t tell me there isn’t a real battle going on around us. I’ve literally been in the middle of it.
My point is, for quite a while now I’ve been asking God why I have these dreams, if they are indeed from Him and why I am able to sense this stuff around me. I’ve also asked Him why He won’t just tell me straight instead of putting me through all these steps! Ha ha. He doesn’t usually work that way. The process, the waiting, the walking by faith is important.
And now I have Jeremiah 33:3.
I’m writing all this to encourage you.
God has a plan for you. He has a purpose for you. Seek His face, call upon Him. He will answer. The process is important.