I want to ask my readers to please pray for my daughter.
She is ten years-old and struggles with cognitive delay, sensory processing, auditory processing and other “special needs”; in some ways she is very much a four-year-old.
Lately she has been saying things like, “Ask Jesus into my heart”. Every Christian parent wants to hear these words, but we are especially thrilled because I had prepared myself for the possibility she may never utter those words, because of her cognitive issues. I was never concerned about her salvation, because if she never mentally reaches the “age of accountability” or is incapable of understanding such things….she has an automatic ticket to Heaven, right?
Her words recently have touched me so. I’ve spoken with her about sin and what Jesus did. She says, “(her name) doesn’t have to be nailed to a cross”. I say, “No, Jesus did it for us”. I am unsure how much she understands, about sin and needing to repent and the fact that trusting in Jesus as Savior and Lord…saves her from this thing called sin.
I am encouraged though. We have been told she is incapable of abstract thought and this is evidenced in that she never “gets” a joke and cannot answer a question that begins with “Why”. Perhaps she is simply repeating what she hears us say, what little bit she is able to process in Sunday school and church services. I do not know.
I do know, however, that she is cradled in Jesus’ arms and He is revealing Himself to her in ways He knows she can understand. Her trust in Him, as Protector, is growing. She asks me to “tell Jesus to keep coyotes out of my room”. We live in a rural area where coyotes live in the woods behind our house, literally within earshot. We are trying to teach her to ask Jesus for help when she feels “fussy”, episodes that are similar to an autistic child’s “meltdowns”.
So, dear readers, please pray for her to grow in her trust and love for Jesus. Pray for her as she struggles with being 10 in some ways and 4 or 5 in others. She wants so much to be independent, as most children her age do, and she cannot wait to drive a car. That is something I do not know she will ever do. She can drive a golf cart quite well, but I am not sure if she will ever pass the written exam necessary for a license. She reads at a kindergarten level. Whatever she can or cannot accomplish in the areas of independent living are below her relationship with Jesus, on our priority list. He has a plan for her, and I know He has extra special angels guarding her that see the Father’s face at all times.
I’ll close this post with my favorite verse:
He will feed His flock like a shepherd;
He will gather the lambs with His arm,
And carry them in His bosom,
And gently lead those who are with young. Isaiah 40:11
His promises are True.